... nandito ako sa lib ngayon, inaantok ng sobra-sobra.
... suot ang top at pants ni Diale.
... at parang lasing parin dahil 15 minutes pa lang ang tulog.
BUT LAST NIGHT WAS SO WORTH IT.
Sabi ko nga kay A.R., "I don't shit in my backyard... except if it's for someone worth shitting for."
Kahit na I went to school for a 2-hour class ng 8am at umuwi ako ng 7am na. Happiness.
Sayang lang di ko nagamit ang aking planned "pickup line"/drama scene at ang aking finisher na... "Guys, samahan ko lang sya "maglipat ng car." Ok na rin. I was surrounded with very good old and new friends.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULI DIALE, CES and DAE. Sana natuwa kayo sa gift namin. Love you much batchies!
PARA KAY DIALE
Kahit gusto kita gantihan dahil sa iyong infamous "Para Kay Eunice" entry a few days ago, di ko na lang gagawin kasi birthday mo. Pero pag may isa pang nag-inquire kung nagsara na, papatayin na kita. Ang entry na'to ay para i-glorify at ipangalandakan sa buong mundo kung sino ka ba talaga. Gaya-gaya lang kay Ces. Ito ang aking "Open Letter" to you.
Diale,
You deserve the best in everything. Di lang sa acads, di lang sa love life, sa lahat. Cancer ka nga, mukha lang sobrang strong from the outside kasi meron kang "exoskeleton" [gusto ko lang talaga ipakita na mejo nerd din ako kaya ako ume-exoskeleton] pero ang totoo, isa kang iyakin, matinding magmahal at sobrang thoughtful na tao. Siguro minsan nalulungkot ka kasi nga di parin pinapakinggan ni Lord un maganda nating chant na, "Let Go, Let God and Let me be the one..." pero isipin mo na lang na at the end of everything, makakalimutan mo na naghintay ka ng matagal. I have no doubt that you will find someone who will make you feel like a princess, kahit na nakataas ang paa mo sa upuan pag kumakain at kung anu-ano ang nalalaglag sa bag mo para pulutin ng mga taong magaganda ang katawan.
Minsan gusto na lang kita i-hug kasi alam ko na kahit nagpapatawa ka, may mga times na nalulungkot ka. Kahit na dinadaan mo sa biro, alam ko na you're dying inside... [to hold you... hehe] But i want to thank you for being strong, for being the comic relief that you are, for showing us that it doesn't hurt to be optimistic and for making us believe that love, no matter how painful, can make you a better person.
Dahil alam ko na iyakin ka naman talaga [hello, A Walk to Remember!] di ko na masyado papatagalin kasi dyahe naman kung umiyak din ako habang nagt-type, so ito na ang matinding closing spiel...
BATCH, isipin mo lang na kagabi nalaman natin na...
...at kahit ilang pinsan mo pa ang ipa-date mo sa'kin, kahit ilang minors pa ang sabihin mong hot at kahit ilang crushes mo pa ang di pumasa sa aking standards [at sa standards narin ni Gea], MAHAL KA NAMIN.
... Kahit ilang beses mo pa hawakan ang boobs namin, at ilang beses mo pa ako yayain na maligo kasabay mo, kahit na ilang beses mo pa ipaamoy un "magic spray" at ilagay sa ibabaw ng table habang kumakain tayo sa Good Earth. MAHAL KA NAMIN.
...Kahit ilang kaBLAGan, kahit ilang "How come?" at kahit ilang "Sitted", kahit ilang "ano ang NEUTRAL" at kahit na sabihin mo araw-araw na "Magpapakulot na ako."... Kahit na sinasabi mo na kamukha ko si Jollibee at pinagpipilitan mo na magsuot ako ng purple na dress at yellow na stockings. MAHAL KA NAMIN.
...Kahit ilang beses pa tayo masaktan, mapaasa, magalit, maaway, ma-bully, maging tanga dahil sa putanginang "Let me be the one" na yan, remember that we all are here to support and love each other.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Batchie! Friday is INDEPENDENCE day!
Love you much!
Diale,
You deserve the best in everything. Di lang sa acads, di lang sa love life, sa lahat. Cancer ka nga, mukha lang sobrang strong from the outside kasi meron kang "exoskeleton" [gusto ko lang talaga ipakita na mejo nerd din ako kaya ako ume-exoskeleton] pero ang totoo, isa kang iyakin, matinding magmahal at sobrang thoughtful na tao. Siguro minsan nalulungkot ka kasi nga di parin pinapakinggan ni Lord un maganda nating chant na, "Let Go, Let God and Let me be the one..." pero isipin mo na lang na at the end of everything, makakalimutan mo na naghintay ka ng matagal. I have no doubt that you will find someone who will make you feel like a princess, kahit na nakataas ang paa mo sa upuan pag kumakain at kung anu-ano ang nalalaglag sa bag mo para pulutin ng mga taong magaganda ang katawan.
Minsan gusto na lang kita i-hug kasi alam ko na kahit nagpapatawa ka, may mga times na nalulungkot ka. Kahit na dinadaan mo sa biro, alam ko na you're dying inside... [to hold you... hehe] But i want to thank you for being strong, for being the comic relief that you are, for showing us that it doesn't hurt to be optimistic and for making us believe that love, no matter how painful, can make you a better person.
Dahil alam ko na iyakin ka naman talaga [hello, A Walk to Remember!] di ko na masyado papatagalin kasi dyahe naman kung umiyak din ako habang nagt-type, so ito na ang matinding closing spiel...
BATCH, isipin mo lang na kagabi nalaman natin na...
"someone's not a virgin anymore!" [inside joke]
...at kahit ilang pinsan mo pa ang ipa-date mo sa'kin, kahit ilang minors pa ang sabihin mong hot at kahit ilang crushes mo pa ang di pumasa sa aking standards [at sa standards narin ni Gea], MAHAL KA NAMIN.
... Kahit ilang beses mo pa hawakan ang boobs namin, at ilang beses mo pa ako yayain na maligo kasabay mo, kahit na ilang beses mo pa ipaamoy un "magic spray" at ilagay sa ibabaw ng table habang kumakain tayo sa Good Earth. MAHAL KA NAMIN.
...Kahit ilang kaBLAGan, kahit ilang "How come?" at kahit ilang "Sitted", kahit ilang "ano ang NEUTRAL" at kahit na sabihin mo araw-araw na "Magpapakulot na ako."... Kahit na sinasabi mo na kamukha ko si Jollibee at pinagpipilitan mo na magsuot ako ng purple na dress at yellow na stockings. MAHAL KA NAMIN.
...Kahit ilang beses pa tayo masaktan, mapaasa, magalit, maaway, ma-bully, maging tanga dahil sa putanginang "Let me be the one" na yan, remember that we all are here to support and love each other.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Batchie! Friday is INDEPENDENCE day!
Love you much!
Dahil Umuulan ng Malakas
"You are what I've been saving for... you are my rainy day..." -Men in Trees
While assessing everything that happened, the only thing that I was able to blurt out last night was, "Bakit ganun? The most romantic people I know are alone?" and my friend replied, "The sad part is, we know at the back of our minds that it could work. If only they were given the chance."
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"That's why I love you, you're the stable to my crazy."
While assessing everything that happened, the only thing that I was able to blurt out last night was, "Bakit ganun? The most romantic people I know are alone?" and my friend replied, "The sad part is, we know at the back of our minds that it could work. If only they were given the chance."
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"That's why I love you, you're the stable to my crazy."
CLOSURE
Last night, while downing my nth bottle of beer, I got into a conversation with a friend about closure. It's amazing how it actually takes an ending to help people start again. In a perfect world, things are continuous, they don't even have to have chapters, things are haphazardly organized.
It warped me to that time when closure seemed to be very important. Seemed. I've had my share of non-closures. I've had my share of "open-ended-putangina-ano-ba-talaga!?" stories. In the end, i realized that most of the time, the need for closure is an excuse. An excuse from starting to move on, an excuse for not letting go, an excuse for still thinking of what might've been.
We hear it all the time, "We still don't have closure." But if the point of closures is to end things, to let you finally say, "Close? Sure!", then maybe everyone got their closure that moment they felt that it wasn't right.
Maybe closures are not as important as openings. Maybe we're just looking at things the wrong way. That if we just look at the other direction, an open door is just waiting. This open door, unlike the one that we want to be closed but still remains to be a little open, is full of beautiful possibilities.
Maybe all we need is to walk away. Maybe.
It warped me to that time when closure seemed to be very important. Seemed. I've had my share of non-closures. I've had my share of "open-ended-putangina-ano-ba-talaga!?" stories. In the end, i realized that most of the time, the need for closure is an excuse. An excuse from starting to move on, an excuse for not letting go, an excuse for still thinking of what might've been.
We hear it all the time, "We still don't have closure." But if the point of closures is to end things, to let you finally say, "Close? Sure!", then maybe everyone got their closure that moment they felt that it wasn't right.
Maybe closures are not as important as openings. Maybe we're just looking at things the wrong way. That if we just look at the other direction, an open door is just waiting. This open door, unlike the one that we want to be closed but still remains to be a little open, is full of beautiful possibilities.
Maybe all we need is to walk away. Maybe.
DYSFUNCTIONAL PARENTING
Dad: [genuinely galit] Yang kapatid mong yan, naghahanap na lang yata ng dahilan na lumabas ng bahay! Kaya nga inayos ang schedule para pag walang class, wala nang lakwatsa! Siguro may Boyfriend un...
Euns: Di ko po alam Dad.
Dad: IKAW! MAY BOYFRIEND KA BA?!
Euns: Wala po.
Dad: Mag-boyfriend ka!
Euns: [Lord, Dad ko na nagsabi ha.]
Euns: Di ko po alam Dad.
Dad: IKAW! MAY BOYFRIEND KA BA?!
Euns: Wala po.
Dad: Mag-boyfriend ka!
Euns: [Lord, Dad ko na nagsabi ha.]
OO NA
"Blahblah" has been tagged in an album.
There it was, the words left unsaid more clearly manifested. It reminded her of how good they look together.
She was left with fleeting memories that are aptly reminiscent of smoke. A stick, a corner, a view and an infinite number of [im]possibilities. He loves her, she loved him... Tangential love.
One point.
- That was all they shared. -
There it was, the words left unsaid more clearly manifested. It reminded her of how good they look together.
She was left with fleeting memories that are aptly reminiscent of smoke. A stick, a corner, a view and an infinite number of [im]possibilities. He loves her, she loved him... Tangential love.
One point.
- That was all they shared. -
My Future Boyfriend...
... will invite me to watch the Eraserheads Reunion gig on August 30, 2008 at the CCP.
My Future Husband...
... will get me a front row seat for the reunion concert.
My FUTURE MASTER, the owner of my body and soul...
... will have a backstage pass for the gig.
AUGUST 30, 2008 is the day i shall sell my soul and forget love. haha.
My Future Husband...
... will get me a front row seat for the reunion concert.
My FUTURE MASTER, the owner of my body and soul...
... will have a backstage pass for the gig.
AUGUST 30, 2008 is the day i shall sell my soul and forget love. haha.
KABABAWAN
Friend1: [re: kawalan ng boyfriend] Kaya ako sinabi ko na talaga, Let Go and Let God...
Euns: Pero Lord, LET ME naman. Let me be the one.
Friend1: Mag-Manaoag kaya tayo? Feeling ko talaga piangdadasal ng Mom ko na wag ako magka-boyfriend.
Friend2: Basta ako, pinagdadasal ko na sana Friend 1, mahalin ka na ni ____ at ikaw Euns, na magkatuluyan na kayo nun lalaki na alam naman nating pinakabagay sayo at minahal mo.
Euns: AYOKO NA SA KANYA!! Bawiin mo, bawiin mo! [Knock on wood]
Friend2: Fine, kahit di na lang sya.
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Ang point, araw-araw na lang umiinom. Alcoholism na ito.
Special participation pa si Mage at Lorah na dalawang beses ko na nakasama sa Rockwell ngayong linggong ito. Si Mage na sobrang controversial pa ang pagpapakilala sa mga batchmates ko.
Tapos na ang maliligayang araw namin next week. Nabanggit pa ni Diale na may thesis defense schedule na raw. [Di pa nakapost, wag tayo mag-panic]
Para sa lahat ng mga candidates sa election today, GOOD LUCK.
Para sa aking SC / TC [semi-crush/ throwing capability], "Mahal kita". *looks at Diale and Ces for the inside joke*
Para kay HEKHEK Boy, lamig lang. Wag ka naman manakot. *once again looks at Ces*
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I watched The Bodyguard as soon as I got home kanina [Btw, I haven't slept, good job] and the only thing that kept me from turning it off is the fact that Kevin Costner was INDEED HOT in that movie. My quote for the day:
"Everyone's afraid of something, that's how you know you care about things, when you're afraid you'll lose them"
- The Bodyguard
Winner.
Euns: Pero Lord, LET ME naman. Let me be the one.
Friend1: Mag-Manaoag kaya tayo? Feeling ko talaga piangdadasal ng Mom ko na wag ako magka-boyfriend.
Friend2: Basta ako, pinagdadasal ko na sana Friend 1, mahalin ka na ni ____ at ikaw Euns, na magkatuluyan na kayo nun lalaki na alam naman nating pinakabagay sayo at minahal mo.
Euns: AYOKO NA SA KANYA!! Bawiin mo, bawiin mo! [Knock on wood]
Friend2: Fine, kahit di na lang sya.
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Ang point, araw-araw na lang umiinom. Alcoholism na ito.
Special participation pa si Mage at Lorah na dalawang beses ko na nakasama sa Rockwell ngayong linggong ito. Si Mage na sobrang controversial pa ang pagpapakilala sa mga batchmates ko.
Tapos na ang maliligayang araw namin next week. Nabanggit pa ni Diale na may thesis defense schedule na raw. [Di pa nakapost, wag tayo mag-panic]
Para sa lahat ng mga candidates sa election today, GOOD LUCK.
Para sa aking SC / TC [semi-crush/ throwing capability], "Mahal kita". *looks at Diale and Ces for the inside joke*
Para kay HEKHEK Boy, lamig lang. Wag ka naman manakot. *once again looks at Ces*
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I watched The Bodyguard as soon as I got home kanina [Btw, I haven't slept, good job] and the only thing that kept me from turning it off is the fact that Kevin Costner was INDEED HOT in that movie. My quote for the day:
"Everyone's afraid of something, that's how you know you care about things, when you're afraid you'll lose them"
- The Bodyguard
Winner.
Grabbed from Patty
A quote from The Holiday that just pierced its way to my heart.
Breakups are hard but that interim period between the breakup and finding someone new is the hardest. This is when you have all the time to think, analyze things... it is in this period that you feel you are at your weakest because there is no one to love and no one who loves you. You do a lot of good things, some silly things until in the end , you realize what you have known the whole time, it was a mere inkling... something you refused to accept and notice.
You can be happy. You will be. Only then will you finally be free.
"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. "
- Iris
- Iris
Breakups are hard but that interim period between the breakup and finding someone new is the hardest. This is when you have all the time to think, analyze things... it is in this period that you feel you are at your weakest because there is no one to love and no one who loves you. You do a lot of good things, some silly things until in the end , you realize what you have known the whole time, it was a mere inkling... something you refused to accept and notice.
You can be happy. You will be. Only then will you finally be free.
UPDATES
As expected, I got called to recite for my Special Cases in Business Law class today. The only EO that I wasn't able to get a copy of turned out to be the most important document in my recit. But I wasn't suprised, I should've seen that coming knowing how fate has always managed to create a spoof out of my life. Anyway, if there is one thing I am good in, it's being able to make anyone smile and my professor wasn't an exception.
Prof: So, what are these regular holidays?
Euns: [enumerates] Blah,blah... Bonifacio day.. blah blah... Rizal Day.
Prof: Do we have an Aguinaldo day?
Euns: No, we don't have an Aguinaldo day sir
Prof: Are you sure?
Euns: Yes sir.
Prof: Why?
Euns: I think it's political. [Whether we admit it or not, we chose to side with Bonfiacio when the Katipunan "drifted apart"]
Prof: So we don't have an Aguinaldo Day?
Euns: No, but we can always get Aguinaldo during Christmas season from our ninongs and ninangs.
[Class and Prof laughs]
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So one of my friends had an "episode" and we ended up hanging out at another friend's dorm.We were doing our thing [without alcohol and yosi, I am so proud of us] and this conversation happened.
Friend 1: So Friend 2, how's your boylet?
Friend 2: Ayun, tulog. Bwisit, tinulugan ako.
Euns: Friend 3, baka kailangan mo magtanong sa boylet ni Friend 2 kung paano makatulog.
Friend 3: Oo nga no. Friend 2, baka naman pwede nya ako mabigyan ng tips... [isip] Baka naman nakatulog sya kasi ka-text ka... Magtext-text na lang tayo mamaya.
Euns: Winner.
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We have a "MOCK NATIONAL ELECTIONS" coming up for POLI LAW REVIEW. I am so happy with my partymates. We call ourselves the BIRTHDAY PARTY. Yes, we're crazy. Who isn't right?
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Speaking of crazy, never mind.
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I have a new semi-crush. He's uhmm, yummy. I loooooove looking at him while pretending to be nonchalant of his presence. If only he's in my league.
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Someone stole my newly-bought creamer for the LSAC. With the container and all. MAGKA-DIARRHEA KA SANA.
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Last na, I know I declared that it is hekhek time, it's just that with all the hekhekan happening around me, I am enjoying being the "audience". But just like what I said earlier, I have a new semi-crush. Ang hot kasi e.
Prof: So, what are these regular holidays?
Euns: [enumerates] Blah,blah... Bonifacio day.. blah blah... Rizal Day.
Prof: Do we have an Aguinaldo day?
Euns: No, we don't have an Aguinaldo day sir
Prof: Are you sure?
Euns: Yes sir.
Prof: Why?
Euns: I think it's political. [Whether we admit it or not, we chose to side with Bonfiacio when the Katipunan "drifted apart"]
Prof: So we don't have an Aguinaldo Day?
Euns: No, but we can always get Aguinaldo during Christmas season from our ninongs and ninangs.
[Class and Prof laughs]
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So one of my friends had an "episode" and we ended up hanging out at another friend's dorm.We were doing our thing [without alcohol and yosi, I am so proud of us] and this conversation happened.
Friend 1: So Friend 2, how's your boylet?
Friend 2: Ayun, tulog. Bwisit, tinulugan ako.
Euns: Friend 3, baka kailangan mo magtanong sa boylet ni Friend 2 kung paano makatulog.
Friend 3: Oo nga no. Friend 2, baka naman pwede nya ako mabigyan ng tips... [isip] Baka naman nakatulog sya kasi ka-text ka... Magtext-text na lang tayo mamaya.
Euns: Winner.
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We have a "MOCK NATIONAL ELECTIONS" coming up for POLI LAW REVIEW. I am so happy with my partymates. We call ourselves the BIRTHDAY PARTY. Yes, we're crazy. Who isn't right?
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Speaking of crazy, never mind.
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I have a new semi-crush. He's uhmm, yummy. I loooooove looking at him while pretending to be nonchalant of his presence. If only he's in my league.
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Someone stole my newly-bought creamer for the LSAC. With the container and all. MAGKA-DIARRHEA KA SANA.
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Last na, I know I declared that it is hekhek time, it's just that with all the hekhekan happening around me, I am enjoying being the "audience". But just like what I said earlier, I have a new semi-crush. Ang hot kasi e.
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