"Ganda" to their Eyes

I love kids.

I say this with all passion and sincerity that I can ever find within me. That's why my whole soul lit up when we, the volunteers for the Gawad Kalinga project of the Student Council, were welcomed by a group of kids as we enter their community. At that certain moment I realized that it was going to be worth my Sunday and that it's probably one of the very few good decisions that I've made this semester...

Their warmth, their ability to make you feel appreciated, that spark of hope that you see in their eyes everytime you assure them that if they do what they are told, things'll be better never fail to make me feel calm and assured too. It's very therapeutic to be surrounded by kids who are full of life, who are willing to have fun with you, to sing, laugh and to dance with you... never minding how complicated the real world is, never minding that you only met. It's that trust that they give you once you put yourself out there... it really is a glimpse of what the world should be. It's a glimpse of how people should think. No hidden questions, no underlying meanings, it's all visible and honest, it's a gamut of beautiful things waiting to be enjoyed and indulged in.

Every hug, every kiss, every tug in the arm, every smile, every ask for help, every look, every game, every dance step, every story, every song, every colored page... everything that's been given to me by them are treasured. One of the kids made me promise that I won't erase their pictures in my phone... one of the kids made me promise that I'll come back... one of the kids asked me if I can just live there. They even call me "Ganda" for crying out loud, kids don't lie remember? Haha... I felt rejuvenated, I felt overwhelmed by gratitude, I felt loved...

I love kids. I feel that they're God's way of telling me not to lose that OPTIMISM that I always pray for. They're God's way of showing me how beautiful and simple things really are. It was definitely a sign, the sign that I've been praying for the whole week.

I still believe. After all, I'm "Ganda" to their eyes... and to my eyes, they are GANDAS and GWAPOS... I will come back. It's my turn to give them something.

Catherine: Ate, asawa mo ba un? [Tingin kay ____]
Euns: Hindi no...
Catherine: E sino asawa mo? sya? [Turo kay _____]
Euns: [Pwede rin.] Ha? Hindi, haha...
Catherine: Sinong asawa mo?
Euns: [boyfriend nga wala din e.. argh] Wala pa ako asawa.
Catherine: E bakit?
Euns: [kung alam ko lang din kung bakit] Kasi bata pa ako.. katulad mo, pag bata pa, kailangan mag-aral muna mabuti para matupad natin un mga pangarap natin. Diba? Promise mo na mag-aaral ka mabuti ha?
Catherine: Promise!

Memoirs of a Casino Filipino Virgin

Yes, it was my first time to actually see and feel what the "Casino Filipino fever" is all about and boy am I glad that gave in... It started pretty uneventful, we were charming our way to finding more people to play poker with us.. and then I was dared to play Poker.. in an actual tournament. At first I got sort of scared, but then I said, waddaheck... It's just a freaking poker game.

The rest was history. I managed to stay until there were only two tables left, it was quite an accomplishment especially since it was a first for me. We met a lot of wonderful people, our table was the noisiest and most energetic [no thanks to me, it was more because of Mr. Glasses]. Ces got her "gadget" and Odie got the second prize... Woohoo! He even gave us 5 thou worth of chips, from which we earned two thousand bucks. Ang saya-saya.

The most exciting part was... Ces found a "one night only" love team and I felt like a woman when this guy gave me his chair upon hearing me say, "I wanna sit here but I don't have a chair." That of course is indicative of his eavesdropping [which in some way makes him creepy] but I couldn't care less. It was a sweet gesture anyway.

Thanks to the sisses for quite an exquisite evening. Let's do this again! Congratulations everyone!

Pahabol na Katatawanan

Natawa lang ako kay Odee kasi di sya marunong mag-upload ng picture sa yahoogroup. Nagkaron kami ng on the spot na session at may natutunan syang skill from me.

Yess. Marunong na mag-upload. Congrats. Umabot ng law school na "techie na techie" ah.

Ultimate LSS as of the moment.

DO YOU KNOW

Do you know?Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends
suddenlyI can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge
and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

How can I love you?How can I love you?How can I love you?How can I love you?

If you just don’t talk to me, babe.
I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know?)

[Do You Know
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never ever happened to me.
(Do you know?)
But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be
Do you know what it feels like loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone
that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one
to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
(Do you know?)(Do you know?)(Do you know?)(Do you know?)

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
(Do you know how it feels?)
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
(Do you know how it feels?)

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do ya?)(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do ya?)

Because Koko is Still a Source of Joy

Ang masasabi ko lang, "Aww..." Just because called me this afternoon to say that HE MISSES ME. I soooooooooooooo love my SOURCE OF JOY. While having a break in his meeting, he chose to chat a little.

The reason for this blog entry is his revelation that his date last week was his mom and he went to watch... [drumroll please!] The Christina Aguilera Concert. In his words, "Paaaan kami e." Yeah, I kinda figured that out because unlike Ces and I who contemplated on going to The Fort to eavesdrop on the concert, Koko and his mom BOUGHT tickets. Paaan na Paaaan nga kayo.

Then he went on to discuss his thesis topic suggestion with me.

Koko, hurry back to Manila!!! I miss you soooooo muuch. And well, the last time you went here, I know you wanted to grill me about the boyfriend. Me no boyfriend no more. Never had, I guess. Kaya wag ka na magtampo na di ko napakilala sa'yo.

Yihee, kinikilig na yan, may isang entry na para sa kanya lang. =P

The Need to be Encompassed

“Once you lose someone, you have to replace him with something bigger. A broken heart does not mend but is encompassed by a bigger heart. Love prevails, though it is transformed."
- Aleli Pansacola Crespo

In a relationship, one heart will always be bigger than the other... I want to be encompassed, I need to be encompassed. My heart is too tired that it has become bigger not because of love but because of constant bumps it had to endure.

Mumo-moment Parin

"If you want peace and quiet, you go to the desert."

-Atty. Tesoro

Prof: Can you eat COPRA?
Stude: No sir. Don't know what copra is.

[naglalakad kami papunta sa washroom]
Deo: [pabigla-bigla] Sinong pinakagwapo sa Meteor Garden?
Euns: [contemplative silence] Nahihirapan talaga ako magdesisyon.

Prof: A home is not a good?
Ces: Yes sir.
Prof: Why? Is it BAD?

Ces: It's in the RR sir.
Prof: What RR?
Euns: [whispers to Ana] Herrera.

Noooooooooooo.

Dear Eunice Zuleika,Here is your single's love horoscope for Thursday, July 12:

You're extra in touch with feelings now, both your own and those of the people around you. It all makes you a little more tenderhearted, in a really wonderful way. Open up and let the emotions flow.

Today is such a Light Day

I have the time to go to the lib and update everything because I am not on deck in Torts, I read as far as possible for Tax and of course our Labor prof didn't go to class the last time so I basically "studied" what's gonna be discussed today.

I got to eat free ice cream today... Yay! What great timing.

I still hope for the best. Thanks Jan for calling, Patty and Rach for staying.

David, Arman and Pepe for the comic relief. Nect time talaga, sa Tondo naman. Haha.

Mahirap...

... sabihin ang mga bagay na sa tingin mo di naman makakabuti pa sa sitwasyon.
... tapusin ang mga bagay na di naman nagsimula.
... simulan ang mga bagay na di mo alam kung paano matatapos.
... umiyak sahil sa mga bagay na di mo alam kung karapat-dapat ba.
... kung nag-umpisang walang problema at natuto kang maniwala para lang malaman na meron lang palang WALA sa paniwala.
... maglakad-lakad kung may posibilidad na madapa at magkasugat ng di mo namamalayan.
... maging masaya kung malulungkot ka din pala.
... magdesisyon at malaman na nagkamali ka.
... maging bahagi ng isang komedya.

Still I Rise

Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

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got this from Anj's site