Ces: Ang cute nyo naman, nagi-guilty sya dahil feeling nya galit ka sa kanya at nagui-guilty ka kasi feeling mo nagui-guilty sya. Sabi nga namin sa kanya na wala na un, pero kailangan siguro kausapin mo sya. Naninimbang sya e, kung ok na ba kayo.
O, di ito isang usapan na ala-FLAMES o GIMIK, isa itong usapan habang nagyo-yosi break pagkatapos ng lahat lahat ng kalabuan na nangyari ngayong araw na ito. i.e. SEC TRANS EXAM. Nabalitaan ko kasi na medyo nakasama un last "emo" entry ko sa isang tao. I'm writing to make him feel better kasi if it's any consolation, I know that he's a great guy. I know that he meant well. I know that he is inherently sensitive.
I almost always get in trouble when I right something emotionally-packed in my blog. It's like people are so used to my being funny and happy and crazy that when they read something that's sort of depressing, they come into a conclusion that something really BAD must've happened. Katulad ng isang beses na kinausap ako ng "friend/object of affection" ko in the past about something i wrote describing our thing as mediocre. I told him that it was what I was feeling at that time. I explained that it's the essence of my writing, i try to capture the things I feel at that exact moment because i don't want them to be lost in the past. It's not about him, it's about me, the journey that I am in. Just like the time when I had to write something about what I feel with regard to a "pseudo-dispute" I had with my college friends, it's not a manifestation of anger but it's just me being honest.
I'm trying to slowly write the story of my life through my blog and if i want it to be a mirror of who I am, I must write what I feel, may it be fleeting or permanent. Most of the time, I write about fleeting but powerful emotions because I believe that it is when I am most in my element to write. Emotions bring out the pseudo-writer in me, they bring out my inner drama queen. I dont mean to burden the people I write about, i am not being an insensitive biyatch and I have no intention to get sympathy from thea readers. I feel so blessed that even my imperfections seem unimportant amidst all the blessings I receive. I just love the rush. I love the challenge of making my readers feel my emotional high's and low's. I just want to let people know that my life's not all SUGAR AND SPICE AND EVERYTHING NICE.
Magkaibigan parin tayo. Di ako galit. Di ako nagkikimkim ng sama ng loob. At higit sa lahat, di mo kailangan ma-bother because it's the last thing I would want to do. I am the last person who would want to distract you. Ok na ha? I did text you na naman at gaya ng sinabi ko, di ako mahilig sa confrontations at di rin ako mahilig sa buhay na mala-soap opera. Salamat sa cake, masarap sya, lasang chocolate mousse at kawawa ka naman kasi ang pwede mo lang kainin ay un lasang pichi-pichi na binili mo for Patty. =P Di ako nang-aasar, tina-try ko lang ipahatid un message na walang nagbago, meaning... Pwede parin tayo mag-gaguhan in the future. Hehe. Apir na! =) Ito na ang last time na magsusulat ako tungkol sayo sa ganitong paraan. Masyado ka na sumisikat e. Kiddin'!
