Napapailing na lang.


natatawa na lang ako sa lahat ng kamalasan natin.
di ako masyado naniniwala sa kapalaran o sa konsepto ng tadhana pero pag naiisip ko kung ilang beses na tayo pinaglaruan nito para di matuloy ang mga plano mo/ko/natin na maging magkasama, napapailing na lang ako.
siguro nga may ganun.
may mga bagay na maling-mali na kahit ang mga anghel sa langit ay gumagawa ng paraan para di matuloy.
napapailing na lang ako. di na kita hinabol kasi pag nahabol kita di ko rin alam kung may sasabihin pa ako.
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napapailing muli ako dahil ang aking quotable quote for today ay mula sa isang show na sosyal na sosyal... Ikaw ang Lahat sa Akin at sinambit ni Jeff Eigenmann nang nagpapaalam na sya kay Bea Alonzo.

"I've always wanted you to be in my fairy tales.. but i guess i'm just not your happy ending."

Go Uste.. Go Usteeee...Da Pichurs


sisters got nothin to do




Walang Pamagat

I plan on getting wasted.
Like an angel transformed
into a monster howling
in silence; scaring you
away. I will be tipsy.
I'll just be tipsee.Thee-pissy.
Deep sea. Tip-synchronized.
Murmuring with my eyes
shut. Dreaming without
sleeping. Slipping..Waking
up with a throbbing head
heart - head - pounding.
I still plan on getting wasted.
Not drunk, not intoxicated.
Wasted.

Go Uste. Go Usteee...

Today's the day i pigged out, bummed around and plainly stared at the moving world around me. I went to UST with my sibs because we "planned" to get my brother’s student's license after his enrolment. Knowing the nocturnal woman that i am, it was unmistakably hard for me to wake up at 'round 5:30 am to take a shower. We arrived at uste 'round 7am. My sister and I deicided to have breakfast first at Coffee Indulgence while Ichie headed to his college. Apparently, his enrolment was not as "easy" as we expected. In the mean time, a lot of really really bad signs came our way. Una, di nila mabuksan buksan un steel na nasa harapan. Sobrang ingay habang pinupukpok nila. Pangalawa, ang tagal tagal ng pagkain namin... di yata sila sanay na may nagoorder nun in-order namin. Pangatlo, nawalang ng kuryente. What are the chances diba? We ate a REALLY REALLY BIG MEAL. Think chicken, pasta and pizza. Served in a really big platter. Nakakasukang kabusugan nanaman.

So i told Jason that i'm in UST and that he might wanna hang out with me and my sis. Jason, the spontaneous and ever reliable buddy that he is positively replied, after he finished with the "encoding" part of his enrolment, he went straight to Coffee INdulgence to meet up with us. Kwentuhan nanaman, as if we didnt just go to the premiere night last week. haha. Then we decided to head straight to SM San Lazaro. That's only after much hesitation on our part because we werent sure if SM San Lazaro's a place we would really wanna go to. But since we had nothing to do, we decided to watch a flick.

We literally opened the mall. Because t'was just a 5-minute drive, we arrived at 'round 10. Surprise surprise, we had no choice but to watch Waiting. It was actually a battle between Waiting and Ispiritista (hahaha) but since we're laiteros, we opted to watch Waiting. Di namin kakayanin ang kahihiyan na ang aga namin para manood ng Ispiritista. Kasi naman napanood na namin ang Legend of Zorro. Argh. The ticket booth was still closed so we frolicked for a few minutes first, appreciated the cellphones on display and drooled. Payn, we didnt drool. Kwentuhan ulit. My sister Hazel managed to play the part of the "i dont wanna talk" woman. She just laughed when Jason and I said something funny but she didnt really join our conversation. Jason accused me of being the most madaldal part of our "trio" (Angel, Jason and Me) but I just told him that he wasnt silent at all when i met him. Di ako ang dahilan ng kadaldalan mo, aminin mo. Haha. WAITING's one of those flicks that would make you feel bad that you spent your money. Isang walang kwentang film. Di bale, may nag-make out naman na homosexual couple sa likuran namin. At least na-entertain kami. Then we headed to Chef d'Angelo to grab something to eat. My sis and I were still full after our HEAVY breakfast so we ordered their Potato with Bacon strips Soup and the Tiramisu Cheesecake. Yummy parin. Kwentuhang walang humpay muli. Jason, my sister said nakakatawa ka raw. Sabi ko sayo nakakatawa ka e. =P Kahit na corny ang jokes mo, nakakatawa ka parin. haha. Lakad-lakad ulit. Window shopping. Then Jason had to go back to UST.

After i kissed Jason goodbye (naks, parang pangromansa),me and my sister stayed at the mall for some shopping because we thought our brother will be finished at that time. But no, di parin. So at around 4, we decided to go back to UST to just wait for him there. But before we went back, KUMAIN nanaman kami. Tokyo Tokyo naman. Sumo Meal, California Maki, Miso Soup. Gluttony na ito. Gluttony na tlaga. Mortal sin. In UST we tried to just chill at their Sunken Garden-ish Field (sorry, i dunno how to describe it). Around 5:30, my sister realized that she had to pee. We cant go inside the colleges so we went to Burger King. Yep, you guessed it right, we bought FOOD.. AGAIN. Float, fries, burger, iced tea. Take out. At, what are the chances na masasarhan kami ng gate? So we had to walk to the other gate pa. Argh. Then we went back to the "field". Sa wakas, natapos din si Alrdich. We werent able to get nahis license, for obvious reasons.

But wait, there's more. On our way home, we bought food (again) at Jollibee. Take out. Pamumuhay Herodes. Tsktsk.

Warming Up...

What Your Pink Outfit Means


Unsurprisingly, you are very sweet and cute.
But you're also a bit of a tease - and not that innocent.
Shy but sexy, you're an alluring mix of contradictions.

Designer match: BCBG

Signature accessory: Tortoise shell sunglasses


Men See You As Desirable


Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

Ateneo Law 1C One Liners

"studyin-together-in-isolation"
"ayoooko-na!-di-na-namin-kaya-pero-walang-nagpapass"
"di-kami-aral-pero-masasagot-namin"
"nadedepress-kami-buti-na-lang-may-powerstation"
"natulog-lang-ako-kagabi-pero-may-digests-ako"

Our "Joint Horoscope"

You know how some cats love to have their backs scratched, but touch the tummy and they shred your hand? Your relationship has one of those extra-sensitive spots right now, and one or both of you is thinking, 'Oh, what could the harm be?' as you reach for it. Stop -- that is, unless you really want to deal with the equivalent of an all-claws attack (with some biting thrown in, too). Keep rubbing the nice, friendly places, and don't push it otherwise (not until later, at least).
Ok, i will keep rubbing the nice,friendly places. I WILL NOT PUSH IT. How apt. Thanks Mumiel. Hehe.

DEPRESYON... TAMA NA PO.

yeah, i already did. but the bigger question is, have i forgiven myself?
im pretty ok with Cyanide.after all the education, all the hardwork.. am i really better off?
hey "my old sef", i am missing you. please come home.
*sigh

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thanks to post secret for the images

AN INNER CHILD'S MELANCHOLY.


Why are you crying?
I'm killing a child's dream.
Who is this child?
A lonely child from within.
What's does she want from you?
She wants my wishes to come true.
Where are you going?
To a place where we'll never feel blue.

(I drew the picture when i was in grade four)

A Trip Down Memory Highway.

This is Melo's fault, after her infamous "survey", i found myself rummaging through my boxes of memories from gradeschool, highschool and college... time doesnt just fly, it flies faster than the speed of light. (kadiri ang cliche) Well i found really interesting stuff so lemme share to you a few of these things...

A LETTER TO:To: Mr. Emmanuel a.k.a. Jesus Christ Nickname: Lord Codename: Boyfriend Occupation: Messiah #1 Deep inside my heart st., Brgy Right Beside Me, Holy Church City, Everywhere, Heaven Country


My first and forever boyfriend,

Knowing you is the most unexplainable love at first sight of my life. At first, akala ko suplado ka at kailangan ko pang magpapansin sa'yo. Dati di ko malaman kung bakit di ako makapag-open up sayo. i've been trying to find true love sa lahat ng naging crushes ko pero i'm glad na tayo ang naging mag-steady. I wanna thank you for finding a way for me to find true friendship. Kaw talaga, nagpapa-cute ka lagi sakin gumawa ka pa ng paraan para maging sa bahay mo ang tambayan namin. Although madalas I take you for granted at nababaling ang tingin ko sa iba huwag kang magselos kasi nasa iyo parin ang loyalty ko. Kung madalas parang wala sayo ang atensyon ko pag may date tayo, sorry, dont worry.. you're who i dream about naman e. Kung tuwing tumatawag sa akin ay ayaw kong makinig dahil may hinihintay akong ibang tawag sorry. Priority parin naman kita e. Minsan nagcool-off tayo dahil narin sa kagagawan ko, sorry. Now i realized my life my life will never be complete without you. Kung nawawalan ako ng tiwala sayo dahil feeling ko di mo na ako mahal, sorry. Alam ko naman na ALL WE NEED IS LOVE and TRUST in our relationship. Kung masyado akong demanding at masyado akong nagpapa-spoil sayo, sorry. Alam ko naman kahit di materyal na bagay ay mahalaga parin. Kung madalas di ko magawa na makipag-PDA sayo sorry. Hayaan mo, mula ngayon magiging demonstrative na ko. Kung madalas di ko nasasabing thank you o i love you sorry pero deep inside naman i really love you and thank you. Kung madalas napapanis ka sa kakahintay sa akin at di ako dumadalaw man lang sayo, sorry. Di ko talaga sinasadya. Kung madalas ay insenstive ako, sorry, ramdam na ramdam ko naman ang TLC mo e. Salamat dahil kahit may relationship ay pinapabayaan mo ako mag-decide for myself. Mi mo ako pinepressure. I love you kasi kahit madalas ikaw lang ang kumikiolos sa relationship natin e di ka sumusuko. And if ever I find a new love, kahit kailan hindi tayo pwedeng magbreak kasi i could never live without you. Salamat sa lahat ng mga gifts mo sakin kahit na i dont return your favor. Sobrang in love na in love ako sayo. I love you.

Eunice
(written when i was a freshie in hs)
A PICTURE OF SPENCER REYES
with the "ang gwapo mo talaga. dance wizard" note
(i cannot believe im posting this)



A Card given to me by Bebert, one of my closest friends in HIGHSCHOOL. Di ako na-offend kahit na ganito ang design.

A Card from UTOL LEIDA


We all have gone far... let's not let go of the memories. That's all we really have.

Patay tayo Jan! Ano ba talaga?

He Is More Than a Hookup


You've fallen pretty hard for this guy, which could be a great thing.
But if he's just looking for a hookup, this spells trouble.
If your guy wants something serious, than by all means, step things up.
Otherwise, find someone else who's interested in more than a fling.
Is He Just a Hookup?
Your Ideal Relationship is Friends Only


Honestly, you're not really ready for a relationship right now.
And you prefer to keep things platonic, for now.
That's not to say that one of your friends could be dating material.
You're just taking a break for now.


The Elevator Groupie

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