Oh Carol...

Carol Wojtyla ... He made me cry.

When i saw him parading when he came to visit the Philippines in 1995 i cried. Yes, i did. It was an unexplainable, overwhelming, unbelievable feeling of being blessed. I felt how strong my faith is. I'm not romanticizing this whole thing but i believe that Pope John Paul II is truly a gift from God.

When he died, i got depressed. When i saw him, lying there, so peaceful.. I cried. Nobody made me cry that easily. I remember reading this book about him, about how he touched people and how he became an example of the Lord's compassion for humanity. He is an affirmation that goodness really exists in this world almost ruled by life's cruelties.

i may not be religious, i may not be into the church's rituals.. but i am spiritual. My relationship with God is something that i get strength from. Pope John Paul II is one inspiration. He forgives, he loves and he believes... in his silence.

Carol Wojtyla, you have lived your life making the world a better place. You did not allow the world's discriminating eyes bother you and discourage you from embracing and respecting people of different beliefs. You embody what humanity should be.

We thank you for gracing us with your existence. Say hi to the Lord for us. Oh Carol...

Iskatenean.. Ateniska... Iskatenista...

Iska (iskolar ng bayan) + atenean = Iskatenean.
Atenean + iska = Ateniska

It's settled, i'm really off to lawschool but this time, i'll be a "Blue Eagle", an atenista, an atenean or uhmm as most of my friends'll say an "Arnean". I cant wait. and i'm not just sayin that coz i really cant wait.

This is another transition stage in the making, and im not even complaining. Unlike starting in college, with a course im not sure if i want, pursuing law is something that i've been wanting to achieve for the longest time. and yes, i changed my mind, i think im gonna do better in Ateneo than in UP. i need the pressure, the critics and that feeling of tryin to redeem myself. Kat said, "You have to study like you never studied before." and i'm not scared. I am ready. I love challenges. In UP, it was more like "Shirk like you never shirked before." Dont get me wrong, UP's my dream school, but one can only get some things and have to accept that life has a better scenario in mind.

If there's something im sure of, it's the fact that i will become a top-caliber lawyer someday. Debating is a passion i havent followed because i was busy enjoying other things. Je ne regrette rien, i lived my UP life to the fullest. I owe a lot to this school.

Ateneo, you better be worth it.

"Pag nahawanahan mo ng kajologs-an natin ang mga atenista, bow na ko sa'yo" - Poxy Cleopatra

Hmm, that's easy. All i need to do is to befriend some people, pretend to be the intellectual that i should be and lure 'em into watchin Wowowee. Good plan. Haha. or, i have to find out who graduated from UP and invite 'em to eat isaw with me. Besides, i have my car now. We can drive back to UP with ease. Orrrrr, i can challenge these people to be as jologs as they can get, that's if they arent all busy reading everything that has to be read.

I'm definitely gonna go shopping with my mom. Law + ateneo = high cost of living. I know, i can still wear ukay-ukay clothes once in a while. But i need new stilettos, new suits and ensembles. Black Shop, Top Shop, Ensemble, Janilyn's here i come. I really cant wait to enrol on the 18th.

Am i scared? I think we all are. My friends are all gonna be workin, i'm gonna be studyin. My parents doesnt want me to work yet, they want me to focus on my studies. I will make 'em proud. I know that they're sort of disappointed about my not graduatin with honors in UP. hmm, toping the bar exam anyone? Wait 'til i get there.

Jersee: Finally may future na ko.
Kat: Ano ka ba , may future ka naman talaga e.

Smiles.... A lot of people believe in me. It's more than enough inspiration for me.

I'm an ISKATENEAN now, ISKATENISTA, ATENISKA.. Where are the Maroon Eagle and the Blue Oblation? Ngii.

The Freedom of Expression

Some writers accuse other writers of being people who need ego-massages, [intellectual] masturbation, and of being senseless.

When did the world become so self-righteous? When did people become so indulgent in the supremacy of their own ideas that they forget how unthinkably differently we all live our lives? Why do people expect other people to abide by rules and standards that they have set for themselves?

 This doesnt only involve writing, this involves everything that we think we know and understand. How sure can we be that our self-declared purpose and ideals are what the world needs to make it a better place?  If the #freedom of expression's purpose is to initiate #change, then maybe by encouraging people to be more open and more expressive of their opinions and their emotions can actually initiate the change that we need.  The key is open discourse.

 Life is one big stock market. We exchange thoughts, we exchange feelings, in the end we can never be sure which thoughts and feelings are to be followed and which are just futile attempts to understand the complexity of our individual intellect and emotions. I isolate opinion and feelings because scientific facts aren't areas that need opinion. These are theories that have been proved by the scientific method and shouldn't even be part of any argument.

 Our opinions are our opinions alone. We can never expect people to abide with them. Who are we to decide which is senseless or not? No single person or group of people can claim monopoly over critical thinking. I must admit, I wrongly judge people. I criticize opinions, but I draw the line by respecting them, and not imposing my beliefs on them.

 I'd rather be a pajama writer than someone boxed in some hypocritical definition of what a writer should be. I'd rather be free. -@LegallyBlunt, "Freedom of Expression" Artwork: "Bandera Filipina" #JuanLuna y Novicio Souvenir design 1899  

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Mallows bite my lips and
the sting remained until oblivion.
I struggled to melt with the background
Knowingly trying to make yellow and
green connive like conspiring bitches.
but no matter how contrasting it may seem
they do look good together.
it maybe that common feeling of freshness;
that freshness is exudes...
i guess it's an unknown ingredient.
that biting heat that lingers,
that oblivious difference.

Redbox.. Chicken Pox... Life Rocks.. (Ngii..)

Atoy has Chicken Pox.. therefore, he wants us to call him Poxy Cleopatra. Talk about star complex at its worst. Ok, i must give it to him, Poxy Cleopatra sounds good. I even wrote a poem for him..

Chicken Pox, chicken pox, my life sucks!
I feel itchy, fate sure mocks.
Dear Lord, make this thing go away.
Poxy Cleopatra wants to play.

Went to Redbox last night, was with my groupmates / friends / overnight mates / gimmick buddies, Angel and Jason. T'was fun to goof around with them and to watch them make a fool out of themselves (in a positive kind of way). It was between laughin and singing that i came to realize how close we have become. Spending almost two weeks together, seeing each other at our best and at our most-dugyot state, we got to that level of friendship that doesnt involve awkwardness anymore. They've seen me bra-less (ehem, haha), really oily, and uhmm, really bitchy. While i was looking at 'em last night, dancing (ala-macho dancers, eek) i knew i am gonna miss 'em. We connected, we found the jologs in each other, the conio in each other and the determined-side of ourselves in that bond that we were able to form, unintendedly. I will miss huggin Angel, lookin at Jason after a really corny joke and just plain bein in the middle of two special guys. Now, im soundin like i've fallen in love with 'em. Yeah, in a way i have... i have fallen in love with the idea of havin 'em around. it was refreshing, it was.. enlightening. It's something i will be holding on to. Ngaaaaarks, ang drama.

Chalkdust -- words.
My runny nose is not as runny as time.

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Pictures + Smiles = A Perfect Day

yeah, and they arent into having their pictures taken..



til "dette" do us part.

that pedicab ride made our oh-so-blessed day tolerable..

Chocolate Kiss-ing and Waiting..



Nevermind if i'm only half-shown.. Jason's so into it anyway. haha

Dette-defying Pictures.. (How Lucky Can We Dette?)

Shirking at the University of Sto. Thomas... Adopting Jason,,


enjoying that "quiet time" w/o angel.. the sleepyhead. haha,,



ShangBoi with The Goddess,,

The Diary of Y Speakers feat. Toni, Toni, Toni ... (An Obsession.)

the goddess and biatch of 'em all ...

Drop-dead Gorgeous Angel ...

ShangBoi / ShowerHunk Jason.

Heartthrob Evolution

This is a stupid entry, if you're not into stupidity and nonsense stop right now or forever hold your peace. This isn't an attempt to show my witty side, not even an attempt to be plain funny. It's just that the urge to write about something stupid is unbearable that i had to give in.

Through the years,i observed that not a lot of people know the correct spelling of HEARTTHROB. I'm not judging them, i think it's really confusing. But thanks to these booboos i found inspiration to write something that will satisfy my craving for absurdity.

Hearthrob -- the more common spelling. the synnergy of the words heart and throb. i think among the incorrect spellings, this is the most acceptable and expected. A hearthrob will have to be someone that makes another person's heart throb faster. in fact, it's so fast that the other "t" got lost along the way. (e.g. "Ohmigosh, Bam Aquino's here, he's such a hearthrob! --the girl here is hyperventilating and palpitating at the same time)

Heartrob -- this one's easy, if you're a heartrob, chances are, you get to rob other people's hearts. Though the more correct term would have to be heart robber. heart rob is the word's verb form. (e.g. Bam Aquino heartrobs Eunice's heart.) The occurence of such phenomenon is a heartrobbery.

Heartrub /Heartrubber -- ok, a heartrub is a person who seem to "touch" another person's heart, this thus explains the rubbing motion. It's like the caressing of hearts (tonight i need your sweet caress, hold me in the darkness) But just like the Heartrob, the more correct term is heartrubber. (e.g. i think i'm falling for him, he touches my heart in ways i can never imagine, he heartrubs me.) But then it'll evolve into a whole new word, a heartrubber is someone who possesses quite a flexible heart -- duh, rubber? --. This person claims to be able to love two or more people all at the same time because his/ her heart can extend to them.(e.g. That guy from the basketball team is a player, he is a heartrubber!)

Hurtrob -- for me, this is the most uhmm, emotionally-charged spelling of all. Hurtrob is someone who robs your heart and hurts you in the process. We all encounter a hurtrob at least once in our lives. He can be that childhood sweetheart, that highschool jock, that artsy musician in college or your boss in the office. This guy's Mr. Out-of-my-league. At times, his hurting us and robbing our hearts are unintentional, but since it's a cruel, cruel world, most of the time, it's really intended.

Heartrobe - someone who protects your heart and cares for it. he puts a "robe" around it so it wouldnt be vulnerable. (e.g. I'm not attracted to him, but he's such a heartrobe that i feel safe when im around him.)

That was fun. It just goes to show how easy it is to come up with something with no significance , haha..

My Love Profile,, Analyzing the "Bull".

Taurus - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best place to meet someone online: American Singles - peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Blog things! You Make My Heart Sing..

Song for the moment: Tell me where it hurts now (tell me?), and i'll do my best to make it better.

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much... You're motto is "the more, the merrier"! Making sure everyone's included is your mission And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many. The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately. You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss. A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a friend to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

What Planet Are You From?

You Are a Dare Devil

For you, life is one big dare. And you're all in for any adventure. Others find you exciting, inspiring, and a bit intimidating. You're biggest challenge at this point is trying to top yourself!

How Daring Are You?

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

NOW, I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S A GOOD THING OR A BAD THING...